Here goes....

Wow...Its been a while...

Here goes....

A Long Time Ago...In A Galaxy Far Far Away....

Travelled up to Lincoln on Tuesday last week.
The journey was pretty shit and very long,
Did not get into Lincoln until around 7.20pm

I had totally forgotten what Lincoln was like
some of the sights were nice,
Like the old buildings and such,
but basically its your typical boring city

Melanie and Liam met me at the bus station
she had changed alot in apperance (it was a good thing)
and Liam had gotten taller and more tanned
I tell you know, If you had a photo of me as a 9yr old kid
and placed it next to Liam, you would think it was him.
He so looks like me that It's scary...lol

Tuesday night, I just rested and drank some beer
had a chat with Mel, and Liam was showing off to me.
I love that kid...lol

Wednesday, we went into town and I checked out some of the
Goth and Pagan shops.
MY GAWD...Im in so much love with the shops...Hahaha
I had so many Ideas for the business
that Im starting up with Sarah next year
I want to do it now....lol

Gave out a few leaflets for GHUK to the shops,
got alot of good response from it.

Liam dragged me around Toys 'R' Us,
to show me what Toys he liked to have...lol
Ahhhh...bless him....If I had Millions, I would spend it on him :-)

Wednesday night was Interesting,
in the way of me being scared shitless by my sister.

I wont go into detail here,
because,
something like this,
only my friends and the person in question knows what went down.
All I will say is that, Melanie, I do love you,
and I will always be here for you, no matter what.
but Don't you ever do that again, as you really did hurt me.
You need to read your email that I will send you soon.

Thursday, I stayed at home as
I was drained of energy and could not do anything.
So all I did was play with Liam, watch loads of cartoons,
read my book, and helped build some lego robots with Liam.
which was cool...lol

Friday, I went back into town.
checked out the shops at the steep hill
now this place is old..as in really old
and full of energy...
that it made it hard for me to keep my balance at times.
Went into one crystal shop/tea room (go figue)
and I bought a few prezzies for some people
and I got talking to the owner their about our group,
and I handed him our leaflet.
he asked me to go downstairs, to the stone celler,
as there had been activity down there.
which I did,
and Melanie and Liam came down with me to see what they can see.
in fact, the celler was a cold spot,
could not pick anything up,
but the tea room was another matter
there was a bloke sitting there smiling at us as we walked passed
no one else saw him except me...
which was interesting as Im getting quite good at this.

I had a chat with Melanie about Wednesday night's events
and she said she was sorry.
I just hope for her sake that she can sort this out,
as I dont really want to lose her.
had enough of my family leaving me, dont want it happening again...lol

Saturday, We travelled all the way up to Withernsea...My home town...
Gee that was a good day...lol
it was pissing down with rain, cloudy and just a shitty day
I took Mum's ashes to the beach,
and I dug a small hole in the sand, near the tide.
and Mel and I sprinkled the ashes into it, and said our goodbyes
and I felt such warmth and happiness engulfing me
that I almost cryed.
It was so beautiful, Mum is at peace now.

We did not want to stay in Withernsea,
mostly due to the fact,
that I did not want to see the rest of the family that lives there
Melanie gets on with them, heck she loves them.
but me, they never treated me like family, even at the funerial,
they never spoke to me much or bothered with me
and that really hurt,
all I wanted that day was to be close to people,
to feel love from my so called family,
as I was the one who had to deal with everything.
I was the one who was there when
both my parents were ill and had to look after them.
I was the one who watched my Mum and Dad
die in front of me, watching their life ebb away.
I was the one who had to deal with the
funerial arrangements when I was out of work.
and the rest of the family who turned up at
the funerial could not give a fucking shit about me
how I was feeling and if I was going to be alright...well Fuck them all
who needs aunts, uncles, cousins.
I have my own family now, and Im happy now!!!

Fuck me....that was a bloody good rant...feel all better now...Lmao

anywhoo...back to my week...

The rest of saturday and sunday,
I just chilled at home, watching TV and reading my book

Monday I went into the village and had another spooky event happen.
which freaked me out alot.
Just chilled most of that day as well.

The holiday was good, except two events that happend,
I had a good time
the meals I had to eat was bloody excellent,
and I have missed Melanie, Liam, and Martin.

Tuesday, I travelled back to jolly MK
The journey back was alright,
except that I had to sit next to a smelly asian bloke
lol
Sarah, picked me up from the coach station, total darling for doing that for me.
Martin and Sarah had been keeping an eye on my flat while I was away,
which I was glad about.
after dropping my suitcase off at my place and reading my mail.
I went over to there house until midnight.
just chatting and drinking, and had a luch meal as well.
christ I had missed them, Its good to have friends like these two.

Wednesday, I met up with Heena, and spent time with her
she had missed me as well.
gave Rebecca her prezzie, which she loved.
had a chat with Debbie at Just Flowers
walked over to Eaglestone, to go over to Sarah and Martin's house
as I needed some advice on what happend last week.
Had a chat with our group medium, and I increased my one of my abilities
I even amazed Sarah and Alison on what I could do.
yeh I know, I'm the best...lol
go...ego boost over...for now...lol

Today, Im off out tonight, and I need to hand out more leaflets for GHUK.

Laters