I Have Been Busy.

Just added a comments box to all my posts.
so If you want to comment on what I have said or done for that day, or even a simple hello.
all you have to do is comment away to your hearts content.

Watched The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen on Tuesday
Very good film, not as good as X-men 2 or Daredevil, but good anyway.
The ending kinda sucked ass, but still...Go and watch it.

Worked most of this week and I will be working all of next week.
loads of money for me to spend on the bills...lol
Still need to look for some sort of a full time job.
I hate being a casual worker.

Was gonna go round Martin and Sarah's last night for a social gathering.
but I really could not be arsed, I was feeling tired from work,
and I just wanted to chill at home in front of the box watching a vid.

I'm really looking forward to Friday night's Halloween party at Rebecca's
It should be bloody brilliant, I'm going as the Grim Reaper.

Wrote a letter to Jo and Uncle Terry the other day.
I should get some sort of a reply back next week...maybe...who knows?

Started to write some more ideas for my comic book, that I'm planning on doing next year.
so far...I've come up with the following titles -
The Brigade of Supernatural Defenders,
Ghost Bandits,
The Phantom War,
The Adventures of Mystery Mark,
SuperTeam Legends.

Anyway...just some ideas....
Black Cat Press will be Born 2004 !!!

Shitty Time

Wow....I'm surprised that I even made it to the internet cafe today
I have had a fucking shit weekend,
been bloody sick and stuck in bed/or on sofa for the whole time.
plus when I got back from the overnight Investigation
I had another nose bleed, but this time, it was gushing with blood.
Like the time I was in hospital for that operation.
Felt like death's bitch....need to get better soon...goddamnit.

well apart from feeling like shit..what else have I been up to?

Worked a few shifts at the florists last week, which Im still enjoying.
Just wish that they would give me a full time contract and some training.
but, maybe it's better that I dont, and maybe find a better paying job.

Still having troubles with this flat.
One wish I do have is to move away from this place and get a decent flat/house next year.
either in MK or elsewhere.
but knowing me, seeing that I have all my friends here, I will be staying put.

feel a bit lightheaded at the mo....but I think I will be alright.

The overnight Investigation was alright.
not alot of activity, but alot of photos was taken.
Started to feel like shit half way thru the evening,
which the mediums picked up on, but I did not want to tell anyone else.
so I just kept quite all night, got to admit,
I was pretty useless that night, needed my Mojo back again.
I don't know if I should go to the doctors or not.
I hate the doctors, but ....fuck it...I get better on my own.

Doing a few shifts this week, which should help me pay the bills.

I will update more later...need a hot drink.

Bad Boys II

Just watched BadBoys II at the cinema.
Fucking Excellent...much better then the first film.
a must watch movie.

Plus Watched the trailer for Lord Of The Rings: The Return Of The King *phew*
Looks awesome...Cant wait until xmas now...lol

Musings

All I ever wanted was to be in love and to be loved
and to have loads of money of course.
so why cant I ever find happiness
why does it always work for others and not for me.

Sometimes I do get so very tired with all of this
Tired of Existence
Tired of the everyday struggle
Tired of all the bullshit that I get from people
Just Tired.

Need a break...Need a KitKat...lol.....I just need something new in my life.
That when I wake up in the morning,
I'm happy to be alive for another day.
Happy that I will make a difference in someone's life
and that my life will somehow change for the better.

Life does suck for those people who only wish for some sort of happiness to creep into their lives.
One of my dearest friends on the net is experiencing problems in her life,
And I only wish that I could be there for her
To help her
To give those soothing words of comfort that she needs.
Her pain, her broken heart I want to heal.
It hurts me,That she is Hurting.
WHY !!!
Why does the Shit always hurt the good ones.

Life is sure a Fucking Bitch.

Sometimes I wish that I could just run away,
Run away from everything and everyone
Start afresh with a new Identity...A new me....
I was always good at changing my Identity's
or was that just me not really knowing who I was?
and trying to find the real Jason...Somewhere in this shell...

Why do I still have those dreams...
The ones of Dread...
The ones of Darkness and Despair...
The dreams of the Unending Dark Smiles and Shadow Thoughts.
What are they telling me?
Are the dreams the real me....The real soul of this shell?

Will I ever find out the truth about my parents?
Will I ever be happy again?

Like the saying goes....
Only Time Will Tell....

Work..Work..Work

Had a good few days so far.

Worked on Saturday, which I was left in charge.
Had a Saturday girl from Rams come over to give me a hand
she was alright...A bit of a pain...But alright...lol

Sunday I just stayed at home and chilled
caught up on some TV that I've missed.

Monday I had made plans to do some stuff,
but I got called into work, as Becca had rung in sick.
I don't mind going in as I needed the work and the cash.
but It is a bit stupid that I get made redundant the other month
due to lack of work, and now I'm working loads of hours.
I'm doing at least 4 more shifts this week, and I don't know about next week either
I do know that I will be working the day after Halloween, as there is no one else to cover
but I will just have to go into work with a hangover from the party night before

We have got a very cool Investigation coming up this weekend, which I'm looking forward to.
Going to have webcams set up so you all can watch us hunt for some spooks...lol

Got our Xmas work dinner/party booked now.
it's gonna be on the 18th Dec at Old Orleans in the Xscape building
should be good.

Got an email from a friend I used to talk to on the net, Missed talking to Shadow, she was a very cool chick.
If you are reading this hun, I'm still thinking about you.

Might go to the cinema later this afternoon to watch BadBoys II
It's a cheap day so I can afford it...lol

Past Tense

Just been reading some old posts from last year, It was an interesting read
I can see how much hurt and anger I had inside of me at the time
losing just about everything in my life at that point and feeling so lost and helpless
that I even thought about ending my life at that stage.
Im just glad that I dont feel like that anymore and I have stuff to live for and to achieve.
yeh, ok, I do get depressed at times and think about Death..alot...but...everyone does...right?
and in my line of work...thinking about Death and Ghosts is a natural thing for me.

My Week So Far...

Ok...
My week so far has been alright.

Monday, I went back up to the Sci-Fi convention
and bought a few more comics that I needed.

Tuesday, I stayed at home, was not feeling that good
felt a bit drained of energy in fact, so I just rested up in front of the TV.

Wednesday, I went to work.
Had a bloody good day working with Debbie, It was a laugh.
I do like working at the Florists, It's just a shame It's only tempory.
Got totally soaked when I was filling the buckets up to change the water.
I was like a drowned rat....Not funny....

Thursday, I stayed at home and just rested watching TV until the evening
when we had our second Paranormal Evening at Trekkers pub.
It was a very good night, despite a few things that happened.
Met up with another Paranormal group who came along.
got chatting to Donna who was part of their group
and we swapped business cards and phone numbers.
drank alot as well....and seeing that I had nothing to eat all day...not good

and today...I need to pop to work to pick up the keys for the shop
and I might go do a bit of shopping and go for a drink, maybe...

Oh yeh...made my mind up on that halloween party.
Going to go to Rebecca's instead now.
Plus It's more of a work do as well,
but I will try and make it over to Sarah's later on in the evening, as it's only an estate away.

Melanie rang me up the other day with some interesting news about our dad
found out who his first wife was, and he had no children with her, well...according to Mel's source.
so that just leaves his other girlfriend's he had when he was in this country,
before and after he met up with mum.

Next month, It will be the 1 year anniversay of Mum's passing....
There's an Investigation happening on that day, and I was not going to go.
I was going to stay at home, get blind fucking drunk, smoke alot, and play with my dagger collection.
but on second thoughts, I rather be with my friends that evening
and doing something to keep my mind off the whole death subject.

YOU ARE A DARK WARLOCK!

You are a deeply mysterious and devastatingly
intelligent being. You like to spend your time
alone studying ways to bend others to your will
and ways to cheat death. Although you have
immense power and and army of followers, death
will find you eventually.

Welcome to the shadows!

And now that you know who you are, take my hand and
join me in a trip to the unknown....

What Time Is It? It's Update Time!

Ok now for an update....

Been pretty busy recently,
did a few shifts at the florists
I know I got made redundant
but now they have asked me back to cover a few shifts
which I don't mind as I need the cash.

Went on an Investigation at the weekend,
which was cool, thought it would have been a bit dull due to some things that happened before we started
but when the mediums got there, it picked up, which I was glad.

Went to the sci-fi convention on Sunday and spent a bit of money on my comicbook collection
I wanted to get an autograph of Frodo, for my nephew, but the tickets to see him had sold out by 8am
so I've missed out on getting Liam a prezzie.
but I might have a cunning plan to get him something else.
Met up with Rebecca and her kids, walked around with them for a bit
hopefully I will be working with her again next week.

Been invited to two Halloween party's this year...ahhhhh...What am I gonna do?
go to Sarah's or to Rebecca's party???
bugger...need to sort this out.

Got a "nice" Letter from Jo last week
which suprised me as what she wrote was pretty out of order
need to write back to her and tell her a few things.

Thought of The Day:

"LIFE ISN'T LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES...
IT'S MORE LIKE A JAR OF JALAPENOS.
WHAT YOU DO TODAY,
MIGHT BURN YOUR ASS TOMORROW."