LOTR:ROTK

Just watched Lord of the Rings: The Return Of The King
My gawd.....
THE best film in the Trilogy and THE best film I've seen in a very long time.
The Battle scenes were a million times better then the battle for Helmsdeep.
Can't wait to see this movie as a special edition DVD.

few more days time, and it will be Crimbo time!!!

I am the Seventh Doctor!

You are the Seventh Doctor: Brooding, enigmatic,
soulful, and occasionally silly.
There are a great many mysteries lurking behind your
ancient eyes, and even your closest companions
aren't allowed to know the full extent of your schemes and concerns.
You are often downright manipulative, using friends and adversaries
alike as chess pieces in a private game against the universe.
Your wrath is slow to build, but terrible when aroused, and you are slowly
settling old scores with threats across the cosmos.

What Have I Been Doing?

Been Bloody busy the past month now that I have had no time to update this site or check my emails.
but I'm online for the day, and hopefully will be back full time (well semi f/t) in the new year.
Alot has happened the last few weeks, some good, some not so good.

Well for starters, my new job at Natural World, which is going great so far.
I get to work with a good bunch of people and the job is fun as well, made alot of good friends here.
let's just hope it lasts and I get a full time job out of it (the job is only for xmas)
Special mention to my mates at work - Donna, Chris, Laura, Carrie, Kelly, Mo, Rob, Tracy, Jodie, Andre, Sam.
The Natural World Posse Rules !!!

We had our Xmas work party last week at Lloyds bar, which was a very good evening.
Everyone got drunk (some more then others) and it was a laugh.

I've also been working alot more shifts at Just Flowers,
so working weekdays at Natural World and weekends at the Florists, I'm bloody tired mostly.
Can't wait until I get paid (which is at the end of the month)

I'm still getting over the flu/cold that I have had for about a month now, I'm down to the final stage which is the cough which can be a pain in the ass, as I don't sleep that well cuz of it.

A bit of damn good Sci-Fi news for you....Farscape is coming back to TV !!! WHOO~FRELLING~HOO!!!
It's about frelling time, one of the best TV Shows ever...I'm a happy sad fanboy now hahaha

Special message to Freya, If you ever need to talk love, I will always be here for you xxx

Another Special message to Rebecca, It was her Birthday last week- Happy (late) Birthday Darling xxx

Melanie (as far as I know) has now moved to Leeds, which is even more further away from me then Lincoln was.
Hopefully I will get to see her at some point in the not too distant future.
Lets just hope she will be happy there.

Went out drinking the other week with some mates from work, went over to Yates for the night.
while I was there, I bumped into an old mate of mine from my days at UCI Cinemas, we got chatting about the old days and what we are doing now with ourselves, when he came out with a bombshell, that fucking shocked me to the core.
another friend of mine Gary, who while I was working there, was one of my best friends (we lost contact during the two year absence while I was a hermit), well the news was that he died last year with lung cancer....fucking lung cancer...He was only 24 years old for fuck's sake...Ok...Fair enough, he smoked like a fucking chimney...But that's not the point.
At the time I was working for UCI. Both of us including Swoz, Hannah, Laura, & Angela were gonna get a house together to share. But it all fell thru due to unforeseen circumstances.
but maybe in an alternate reality, it would have been damn good.
anyway, where ever you are Gary, I just hope you are happy.

On to something a bit good now,
My Penpal Candy (who is a total sweetheart) texted me the other night, a very sweet babe, Merry Crimbo Hun.

Went up to London last week with Sarah,Martin, & Phil to the launch party of PSX 2 game - Ghosthunter,
It was a good evening, free food and drink, the game looked good, had a chat with alot of people.
Sarah was not feeling too well, so we left early (she was a bit moody on the way back home)
but not a bad evening, it did make me think about several things, about my future with GHUK.
but my mind was made up on Saturday about that.
James was made a member of GHUK, but mates or not, I told Sarah that I did not want him as part of the group, but as always she would not listen (her mistake), so when he came over to tell me the "good" news, I knew what I had to do.
things between me and the group have been strained since their "witchhunt" a few months ago, and I have felt I could not trust them as much I used to, plus the fact that we have not done any Investigations in a while, met up in a social aspect, or done any follow thru with our hunts, like we used to.
so with my mind made up, I emailed Sarah, after having an interesting chat with Martin, and I have quit.
No longer am I a member of GhostHunters UK.
It is a bloody shame, as I did enjoy being a member, but next year things are changing for me.
If you are reading this Sarah, or any other member of GHUK, I wish the best for you, you five (Sarah, Martin, Simon, Alison, Lorraine) helped me alot this year, you brought me back from the brink of the abyss that I was in (if you knew it or not) and I will always hold a special place for you in my heart. If we continue being friends or not is down to you. But best wishes for the future. xxxxx

To any of my workmates who are reading this Blog.....Sign my Bloody Guestbook Please !!! Thanks ;-)

Planning on setting up a new website in the new year, maybe a replacement to Para-United, I don't know yet.
working title so far is Paranormal Rising. The Para-United website/message board is pretty much dead and nearly buried, the message board is even using an old style layout, I've seen other paranormal websites out there, and they are fucking sweet as anything, while we are in the stone age.
It's a shame as we used to be one of the best European paranormal sites out there.

I'm still working out ideas for BlackCat Press as well, which should be launched in the fall of '04
and then there's WitchBoy.Com, which is going to be my main website.

so methinks I will be a busy lil witch next year.
then there's also the fact that I'm thinking of moving home again as well.
either stay in MK or move elsewhere, Hastings maybe?
Don't know why Hastings,
maybe cuz I was watching Foyle's war on TV the other night and that's where it's based.
and I still would love to move to York as well.

Just using a friend's computer at the moment as I have repair men in my flat again to sort out the boiler and pipe work, and it's a bloody pain in the ass.

Busy..Busy..

Hey all ;-)

Been really busy the past week and a bit.
and at the moment,
I've got a stinking cold, and I need to get better before work in morning.

ok for starters...

spent most of the early part of last week cleaning my flat and unpacking everything.
finally I have finished unpacking after living in the flat since May.
the place is looking better now.

Wednesday, Rebecca came over to spend the day with me, as it was her day off.
which was cool, as we had alot to catch up on.

Friday, I started my new job at Natural World.
only did 4 hours, but it was good.
made a few mistakes on the till, but that was to be expected.
not a bad bunch of people I'm working with.

In the evening, I went to the paranormal chat at Trekkers.
it was alright, nothing that special took place.
Hopefully on the Dec one, we will actually discuss the paranormal or do something worthwhile on the night.

Saturday, I worked at the Florists by myself for most of it as well.
Only had one of the drivers from Rams for a few hours in the morning to keep me company before she had to go.
at least I was kept busy, and took lots of money.
made over £400. by the end of the evening.

had a couple of drinks after work with James and Ian, before I went home.

Sunday was a very emotional day for me.
I worked at Natural World from 11am to 5pm,
spent the time stocking up and tidying the stockroom out, putting things in order,etc.
when I went home, I crashed for a few hours, before waking up and getting dinner ready.
why I was emotional was Sunday the 16th was the one year anniversary of mum's passing.
(I don't like saying death, when it concerns mum)
so I really was low as anything, I was not feeling too well either,
and all I could think about was the day it all happened, living thru those events again as if fresh.
it was not good.

Melanie rang me up to see if I was alright, hopefullt she was that evening.
and Rebecca rang me up for an hour or so, to cheer me up and to make sure that I'm alright.

I must have passed out after 10pm. as the next thing I remember was waking up around 1am.
I felt like shit, so I crawled into bed.

Woke up yesterday morning, all stiff and aching all over in my back, neck, etc.
felt like death's bitch.
so I just wrapped up warm and stayed in front of the TV, with a few naps in between.

Got up this morning, feeling a bit better then yesterday, but still feeling like shit.
I had to get out of the flat today, as I have no food or drink, and I don't really want to starve.
so I'm off to sainsburys later.

I'm supposed to be going out tonight with everyone at work, to the cinema to watch Matrix:Revolutions.
but I don't know yet if I can make it or not.

Reborn

I've already posted this on my poem site and GHUK message board
but It's bloody good as I just started typing it with out thinking -

Reborn -

My soul cries out loud
as I wake up from the living nightmare
that is life
reborn in this new body
a new life
after death
a phoenix from the ashes of the living
opening of the eyes of the new
feeling the colours of this new life
seeing the world as if new
hearing the heartbeat of this born again body
opening the mouth and screaming that silent cry
of the soul that is fresh,
fresh like the bitter cold that surrounds your naked body
waking up and stretching your new mind
to the limitless thoughts that dance around you
knowing that you are one of the newborn
one of the angels of this new world.

Mini-Rant

Had our First Medium Open Circle on Friday.
and It went really well.
was really Impressed by the whole evening
and by certain members who displayed their "gifts" when I had thought they did not have any.
Had no idea what to expect on the evening, but for our first session, I think we did damn good.
Big Thanks to Alison and Lorraine for showing us the way.
and Big Thanks to Sarah and Martin for the use of the location.

Did another shift at the Florists on Saturday, worked with Judy.
which was cool, we were busy up until 1pm ish, then it went really dead.
I took around £220. In under an hour while Judy was on her break.
Christ I was swamped by customers...lol

Checked in with my new job while I was on my break, I start this coming Friday.
so there is no real point in me working at Debenans today (supposed to start there today at 7am)
plus the fact that I might be working at Rams this week as well - Rams is our Bletchley branch (it's in another town)
Judy was telling me that she wants to employ me at her shop, but Mark (area-manager) does not want to pay me the full wages for my age which is over £5 an hour, he is only willing to pay me the bare minium which is in the reach of £3.60....like fuck Im gonna work for that wage.
if he gets off his ass and pays me for what I'm worth, then yes I will go over to bletchley and work at Rams full time.

~ok rant over~

Heena and Bunny came over to see me while I was at work, which cheered me up alot
James and Ian came over as well, about the same time in fact.

After work, we all went up to Moon Under The Water (local pub) for a few drinks and a chat.
Heena & Bunny could not stay for long, so Heena said she would call me later.
Ian had to go as well, as he had a party to go to.
so James and I finished our beers and went over to Chillies for an Indian meal.
A typical british Saturday - work, beer, Indian curry....ahhhh...bliss beyond words.....lmao
damn good night !!!

Yesterday (sunday) I just stayed at home and chilled, watched TV all day in fact.

I might be meeting Heena later, not too sure yet.

Interviews and Stuff

Hey ;-)

I've had an interesting week so far...
Had the workmen over on Tuesday
and they finally sorted out the kitchen taps
and the leak from the bathroom that was pouring water into downstairs flats kitchen.

Started to finish unpacking everything else at last in my flat,
and joy oh joys....I found some of the RPG books that I had thought I had lost during the move to the flat.

Had an interview today for a Christmas temp job at Natural World, and I was given the job on the spot.
Damn I am that good...lol
Hopefully after Xmas, something more permenet will come about.
I was going to start work at Debenans on Monday morning working as a temp in the stock room.
but it was only for two weeks and not worth it,
plus Nicki is working there, and she has still not forgiven me after we lived together and I moved out.
so I rather not deal with the bloody hassle.

Vicki rang me up this morning telling me about a ghost she saw at her work place last night, she wants me to have look into it when I visit her at Christmas.

It's the open circle meeting tonight...should be interesting.

Lots of Important Stuff

Good Morning,

I've been so bloody busy with work and other things that I have had no time to come here and update or do anything else really...Like watch TV, read a book.
or anything else apart from work, drink after work, and have dinner/supper.

Bloody Tired from working over 6 days in a row....
But it felt bloody good, and I really wish that I could still work there for good.
I have finally found a job that I love, workmates that I love working with and hanging out with,
and I can't work there on a fulltime basis, I'm only a casual part timer....It fucking sucks.
I love being a Florist, It is so cool.
I'm thinking about going to college next year to train to be a proper florist.

Anywhoo...Got lots to update and to settle a few things that has gone on while I have been offline this week.

Sat 25th I was going to go over to Martin and Sarah's for a social gathering,
But I posted on the last Journal entry that I could not be arsed to go as I was tired, etc.
Somehow that entry was mistaken for me lying to two of my closest friends,
that was not it guys.

I had a busy day at work and I was fucking tired when I got home,
I did have a council bloke who was gonna come round after 6pm to fix my kitchen taps as the night before he had not had the right parts to do the job,
but typical council cowboy he did not turn up until the next day
when I was out updating this site last, he left a note saying that he had too many emergencies that night.

I would never lie to my friends,
Only to the people I dislike, and you two are not in that category.

anyway...I hope that clears things up between us, and as for the Investigation tapes, yeh my bad, I should have watched them while I was having supper or something.
sorry...

ok....Now for the rest of the week...

Like I said, been working every day at Just Flowers with Debbie,
The best boss I have ever worked for...Apart from total respect for the lady, she is also a damn good friend.

Monday evening after work, I went upto Weatherspoons in the XScape building with James and wasted most of that day's wages on beer, had more then 8 pints, I know that I out Drinked James (he's a bit of a lightweight)
Just need to chill with a nice cold beer in my hand.

Tuesday, I got a really nice letter from Uncle Terry.
I've only met him the once, 9 or 10 years ago before my dad passed away.
Nice enough Gentleman, I just need to get to know him alot better, I've not got that much family left now.

Bumped into Darrell and Melanie during the week (can't remember which day),
Used to hang around with them when I was at school (Middle school and High school),
they want to meet up with me and a few other old "friends" for a school reunion/boozy filled night out.
should be interesting as I have not really hung out with these people since leaving school in '92.

It's Heena's birthday today... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!
Was goona go out with her today and treat her, but she's a bit busy today, so maybe tomorrow.

Finally entered into the 21st century, Bought a DVD Player the other night from WHSmith, looks very snazzy.

Vicki, a very dear and close friend of mine is coming down this month to see me,
and to cheer me up after a few problems I have had this past few weeks.
can't wait until I see her, I've not seen her since Mum's funeral last year.

Which reminds me, Her one year anniversary is coming up on the 15th....Time to reflect on my life this past year and what I have planned for the next one, which if things do get off the ground on what I'm planning, It should be bloody good.

Mark came over to the shop the other day, and showed off his son to me, his name is Harvey, and my gawd it looks like him as well....Chubby and white....lol.....j/k
need to go over to see him and Sharon at some point this week.

Friday was HALLOWEEN !!!
Worked all day with Judy, which we were really busy, in fact we have been really busy all week.
after work, went home to have a bath, shave, and to sort my costume out for Rebecca's party.
Originally I was going as the Grim Reaper, I bought the costume and everything, the week before,
but I only tried it on the Friday morning...And well...It kinda did not fit that well....Heck I could have gone as Death...But I would have been a very Chubby Grim Reaper...Which somehow would not look right...lol
so...Being the genius that I am....I altered the costume with my amazing skills at sewing and cutting cloth material. Bought myself a new LightSaber and I went as a dark Jedi Knight...Looked damn good as well.
The party was one of the best night's I've had in a long time, we drank loads, sang out loud to the cheezy music in the back ground, danced around (and yes, even I danced, got dragged on to the floor to dance by Debbie), eat loads of nice food, told loads of jokes and had a damn good night of it, I was the last one to leave at 3am.
as Ken (becca's husband) went to bed, Mark (becca's dad) went home not feeling to well, Debbie (our boss) went home about 20 mins before me.
damn good night...And the punch was lethal....Very strong.....Got lots of photos of the evening, some of them are quite embassing as well...Hehehehe *wicked laugh*

got home and had 2 and a half hours sleep before getting up again to get ready for work.
I did not have a hangover, I was just on a come down from a good night, so I was slightly quite that Debbie thought something was up with me.
Heena came by for a while and we chatted about stuff, also had a quick chat with Michelle, hope things are alright with her after last week.
Sat was my last day (so far) at Just Flowers, I really am gonna miss working with there.
at least I've got the work xmas dinner to look forward to in Dec.

Sat evening, Martin came over to give back the three videos that he borrowed off me, we chatted about stuff that has happened this past week, and sorted out alot of stuff.
went to bed really early that night (9pm ish) due to being tired and nothing on TV.
everything was going really well until about 3.20am, when I was woken up by someone banging and kicking on my front door, so I got up, put on my dressing gown and grabbed the first weapon I had in reach, which was my axe.
so I went downstairs, ready to kick some ass for disturbing my sleep.
opened the front door, and there was Andy (my next door neighbour) bare chested, with blood stains on his jeans and his arm wrapped up in bloody bandages and part of his head covered in a bloody bandage.
Turns out that early on in the evening, Steve (the jebus lover) had went about and attacked Andy in a drunken fit of rage, by cutting his head and stabbing him in the arm, before ringing the police and the paramedics to tell them what he had done. he was arrested and Andy was sent to the ER. and then he was stiched up and turfed out of the hospital (typical MK)
why Andy was banging on my door at 3.20am was for help in getting back into the flat as he had no keys.
so I tried breaking his door down with little success, so with my axe, I broke the door window and put my arm thru to undo the door lock.
I did cut my finger a bit with the broken glass, but It was alright.
went into the flat, blood everywhere in the kitchen where the attack took place.
I made him a cup of coffee and sat with him for a bit, before placing a peice of cardboard on the broken window and saying goodnight, and that I would call on him in the morning.
anyway, finally got to sleep around 5am ish, and when I woke up later in the morning, all I could hear was laughter and lots of swearing from downstairs.
turns out that Steve was let out of jail in the morning, and Andy did not press any charges against him as he was his friend, and they were only drunk when the attack happened.
bloody idiots.....next time I wont help them again...let the buggers kill each other...twats.

and that is almost it for my week's update....will update alot more during the week
as I need to meet up with Martin and Sarah this week, find myself a job, and do some other important stuff that I cant think of right now.

laters...

I Have Been Busy.

Just added a comments box to all my posts.
so If you want to comment on what I have said or done for that day, or even a simple hello.
all you have to do is comment away to your hearts content.

Watched The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen on Tuesday
Very good film, not as good as X-men 2 or Daredevil, but good anyway.
The ending kinda sucked ass, but still...Go and watch it.

Worked most of this week and I will be working all of next week.
loads of money for me to spend on the bills...lol
Still need to look for some sort of a full time job.
I hate being a casual worker.

Was gonna go round Martin and Sarah's last night for a social gathering.
but I really could not be arsed, I was feeling tired from work,
and I just wanted to chill at home in front of the box watching a vid.

I'm really looking forward to Friday night's Halloween party at Rebecca's
It should be bloody brilliant, I'm going as the Grim Reaper.

Wrote a letter to Jo and Uncle Terry the other day.
I should get some sort of a reply back next week...maybe...who knows?

Started to write some more ideas for my comic book, that I'm planning on doing next year.
so far...I've come up with the following titles -
The Brigade of Supernatural Defenders,
Ghost Bandits,
The Phantom War,
The Adventures of Mystery Mark,
SuperTeam Legends.

Anyway...just some ideas....
Black Cat Press will be Born 2004 !!!

Shitty Time

Wow....I'm surprised that I even made it to the internet cafe today
I have had a fucking shit weekend,
been bloody sick and stuck in bed/or on sofa for the whole time.
plus when I got back from the overnight Investigation
I had another nose bleed, but this time, it was gushing with blood.
Like the time I was in hospital for that operation.
Felt like death's bitch....need to get better soon...goddamnit.

well apart from feeling like shit..what else have I been up to?

Worked a few shifts at the florists last week, which Im still enjoying.
Just wish that they would give me a full time contract and some training.
but, maybe it's better that I dont, and maybe find a better paying job.

Still having troubles with this flat.
One wish I do have is to move away from this place and get a decent flat/house next year.
either in MK or elsewhere.
but knowing me, seeing that I have all my friends here, I will be staying put.

feel a bit lightheaded at the mo....but I think I will be alright.

The overnight Investigation was alright.
not alot of activity, but alot of photos was taken.
Started to feel like shit half way thru the evening,
which the mediums picked up on, but I did not want to tell anyone else.
so I just kept quite all night, got to admit,
I was pretty useless that night, needed my Mojo back again.
I don't know if I should go to the doctors or not.
I hate the doctors, but ....fuck it...I get better on my own.

Doing a few shifts this week, which should help me pay the bills.

I will update more later...need a hot drink.

Bad Boys II

Just watched BadBoys II at the cinema.
Fucking Excellent...much better then the first film.
a must watch movie.

Plus Watched the trailer for Lord Of The Rings: The Return Of The King *phew*
Looks awesome...Cant wait until xmas now...lol

Musings

All I ever wanted was to be in love and to be loved
and to have loads of money of course.
so why cant I ever find happiness
why does it always work for others and not for me.

Sometimes I do get so very tired with all of this
Tired of Existence
Tired of the everyday struggle
Tired of all the bullshit that I get from people
Just Tired.

Need a break...Need a KitKat...lol.....I just need something new in my life.
That when I wake up in the morning,
I'm happy to be alive for another day.
Happy that I will make a difference in someone's life
and that my life will somehow change for the better.

Life does suck for those people who only wish for some sort of happiness to creep into their lives.
One of my dearest friends on the net is experiencing problems in her life,
And I only wish that I could be there for her
To help her
To give those soothing words of comfort that she needs.
Her pain, her broken heart I want to heal.
It hurts me,That she is Hurting.
WHY !!!
Why does the Shit always hurt the good ones.

Life is sure a Fucking Bitch.

Sometimes I wish that I could just run away,
Run away from everything and everyone
Start afresh with a new Identity...A new me....
I was always good at changing my Identity's
or was that just me not really knowing who I was?
and trying to find the real Jason...Somewhere in this shell...

Why do I still have those dreams...
The ones of Dread...
The ones of Darkness and Despair...
The dreams of the Unending Dark Smiles and Shadow Thoughts.
What are they telling me?
Are the dreams the real me....The real soul of this shell?

Will I ever find out the truth about my parents?
Will I ever be happy again?

Like the saying goes....
Only Time Will Tell....

Work..Work..Work

Had a good few days so far.

Worked on Saturday, which I was left in charge.
Had a Saturday girl from Rams come over to give me a hand
she was alright...A bit of a pain...But alright...lol

Sunday I just stayed at home and chilled
caught up on some TV that I've missed.

Monday I had made plans to do some stuff,
but I got called into work, as Becca had rung in sick.
I don't mind going in as I needed the work and the cash.
but It is a bit stupid that I get made redundant the other month
due to lack of work, and now I'm working loads of hours.
I'm doing at least 4 more shifts this week, and I don't know about next week either
I do know that I will be working the day after Halloween, as there is no one else to cover
but I will just have to go into work with a hangover from the party night before

We have got a very cool Investigation coming up this weekend, which I'm looking forward to.
Going to have webcams set up so you all can watch us hunt for some spooks...lol

Got our Xmas work dinner/party booked now.
it's gonna be on the 18th Dec at Old Orleans in the Xscape building
should be good.

Got an email from a friend I used to talk to on the net, Missed talking to Shadow, she was a very cool chick.
If you are reading this hun, I'm still thinking about you.

Might go to the cinema later this afternoon to watch BadBoys II
It's a cheap day so I can afford it...lol

Past Tense

Just been reading some old posts from last year, It was an interesting read
I can see how much hurt and anger I had inside of me at the time
losing just about everything in my life at that point and feeling so lost and helpless
that I even thought about ending my life at that stage.
Im just glad that I dont feel like that anymore and I have stuff to live for and to achieve.
yeh, ok, I do get depressed at times and think about Death..alot...but...everyone does...right?
and in my line of work...thinking about Death and Ghosts is a natural thing for me.

My Week So Far...

Ok...
My week so far has been alright.

Monday, I went back up to the Sci-Fi convention
and bought a few more comics that I needed.

Tuesday, I stayed at home, was not feeling that good
felt a bit drained of energy in fact, so I just rested up in front of the TV.

Wednesday, I went to work.
Had a bloody good day working with Debbie, It was a laugh.
I do like working at the Florists, It's just a shame It's only tempory.
Got totally soaked when I was filling the buckets up to change the water.
I was like a drowned rat....Not funny....

Thursday, I stayed at home and just rested watching TV until the evening
when we had our second Paranormal Evening at Trekkers pub.
It was a very good night, despite a few things that happened.
Met up with another Paranormal group who came along.
got chatting to Donna who was part of their group
and we swapped business cards and phone numbers.
drank alot as well....and seeing that I had nothing to eat all day...not good

and today...I need to pop to work to pick up the keys for the shop
and I might go do a bit of shopping and go for a drink, maybe...

Oh yeh...made my mind up on that halloween party.
Going to go to Rebecca's instead now.
Plus It's more of a work do as well,
but I will try and make it over to Sarah's later on in the evening, as it's only an estate away.

Melanie rang me up the other day with some interesting news about our dad
found out who his first wife was, and he had no children with her, well...according to Mel's source.
so that just leaves his other girlfriend's he had when he was in this country,
before and after he met up with mum.

Next month, It will be the 1 year anniversay of Mum's passing....
There's an Investigation happening on that day, and I was not going to go.
I was going to stay at home, get blind fucking drunk, smoke alot, and play with my dagger collection.
but on second thoughts, I rather be with my friends that evening
and doing something to keep my mind off the whole death subject.

YOU ARE A DARK WARLOCK!

You are a deeply mysterious and devastatingly
intelligent being. You like to spend your time
alone studying ways to bend others to your will
and ways to cheat death. Although you have
immense power and and army of followers, death
will find you eventually.

Welcome to the shadows!

And now that you know who you are, take my hand and
join me in a trip to the unknown....

What Time Is It? It's Update Time!

Ok now for an update....

Been pretty busy recently,
did a few shifts at the florists
I know I got made redundant
but now they have asked me back to cover a few shifts
which I don't mind as I need the cash.

Went on an Investigation at the weekend,
which was cool, thought it would have been a bit dull due to some things that happened before we started
but when the mediums got there, it picked up, which I was glad.

Went to the sci-fi convention on Sunday and spent a bit of money on my comicbook collection
I wanted to get an autograph of Frodo, for my nephew, but the tickets to see him had sold out by 8am
so I've missed out on getting Liam a prezzie.
but I might have a cunning plan to get him something else.
Met up with Rebecca and her kids, walked around with them for a bit
hopefully I will be working with her again next week.

Been invited to two Halloween party's this year...ahhhhh...What am I gonna do?
go to Sarah's or to Rebecca's party???
bugger...need to sort this out.

Got a "nice" Letter from Jo last week
which suprised me as what she wrote was pretty out of order
need to write back to her and tell her a few things.

Thought of The Day:

"LIFE ISN'T LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES...
IT'S MORE LIKE A JAR OF JALAPENOS.
WHAT YOU DO TODAY,
MIGHT BURN YOUR ASS TOMORROW."

Boring Thoughts

I’m in the middle of designing some new stuff here
which I hope you will like, as I know I will.

Had a pretty boring few days
Had alot to think about recently,
stuff to do with my present and future and
things I need to change in my life
which will effect certain people.
but as for now,
until I sort things out there is Nothing to report just yet.

Interview

Ok I'm adding loads of new things here.

It will take a while as I'm also working
on a new design for Para-United.

Had the Interview at RiverIsland
My gawd...I was the only one who was dressed smartly
everyone else there was in t-shirts and dirty jeans, trainers
while I was in a clean shirt, smart jeans, Polished Boots.
and looked damn good...lol

but anyway, I dont know about this one.
If they offer me it, then thats ok, but It's not an excellent job
just something to do for some money.

woohoo

WooHoo !!!

Just got a phone call from my Agency
I've passed the first stage of the Interview process with Silverlink Trains
They were so bloody impressed I was just told (well except the bloody part)
The Interview is gonna be held in London on the 2nd of October.

Quote of the Day:

"Never take life to seriously
You will never get out Alive"

Bugs Bunny

Fucking Rain

Well last night was a bitch
We had a freak rain storm here in MK
and when I got home from Sainsburys
I found my front door unlocked and
Steve (the Jebus Lover) outside waiting for me
turns out that the fire brigade had been in my flat
due to water pouring down the ceiling of steve's flat
he thought I had left a tap running or something.
anyway,
my living room carpet by the balcony door was soaking wet
and part of the carpet in my bedroom was soaked as well
turns out that freak rain storm had filled up the balcony with water
and just sweeped thru the cracks of the door soaking my carpet
and pouring down into the floorboards and into Steve's flat downstairs.
just a bit of a fucking bitch cleaning up last night and this morning.
the council repair man came out last night, but there was nothing he could do.
an act of god he said.....fuck that...
I bet you anything it was Steve asking Jebus to teach me a lesson....LMAO

Interviews and Paranormal Shindigs

What a week and a bit I've had recently.

The Paranormal Evening on the 13th was was really good
not alot of people turned up,
and I was really worried about that at first
but It turned out all right.
We all had a good time.
and I met Suzy for the first time
which was cool all on its own...lol

Sunday thru to Wednesday was just too damn quiet for me.
spent the time cleaning my flat, Watching TV,
Writing some stuff for my book, and just chilling at home.

Thursday, I went to sign on, and to apply for loads more jobs
Met up with Heena and we went back to my place for a chat and a chill session.
she gave me some advice which I really needed at the time
Thanx Hun ((Hugs))

Friday was really good for me.
Had my Interview with Silverlink Trains
for Trainee Conductor (£17.6 K p/a)
which the wages was fucking excellent anyway
Well the interview was TWO bloody hours long
filling in forms, having chats with the managers,
and then the Interview itself,
was a question and answer session and some roleplaying.
I think I have passed the first stage of the Interview,
But I just got to hear back from the agency that sent me there.
If I have passed the first stage, Then the second part will be -
Another assesement, Full Medical, Psyche Tests,
Alcoal and Drugs testing (Fuck Me!!)
Better stay off the weed for a while then...Just in case...lol

Met up with Heena afterwards and we went back to mine
for a chat.

And as for Saturday....

Well for starters, I had two chocies to make
Go to a GHUK Investigation or Work.
I got asked to do a shift at the florists on Thursday
and I really needed the money,
seeing that I had run out of food and was bloody skint.
so I chose to work instead, which I was glad anyway
as there will be some extra shifts coming up soon.

Anyway, had a good day at work, It felt like that I had never left.

Met up with Suzy and her brother Daniel after work.
and we had a few drinks at weatherspoons
before going to the cinema to watch UnderWorld!!!
Fucking Fantastic Film
very dark and sexy movie,
the vamps were fangtastic and the Were's were Excellent.
The ending does lead to a possible second movie
and Kate Beckinsale in tight black PVC leather with Guns....WOOF !!!

I can die happy now....lmao

anyway, had a bloody good night and a good chat with Suzy
Hopefully I will be seeing her this week
before she goes back to Italy next monday.

Off for a drink later this afternoon, and tonight who knows?

This Wednesday I have another Interview,
this time with River Island Warehouse.
Hopefully I get a job soon.

so fingers crossed that I get something soon.
so I can afford to move house again.

Quote of the Day:

Th, Th, Th, That's all folks !

Porky Pig

Chilling

Hmmmm It's fucking Raining...
and I've got my washing out on the Line.
Bloody typical...

Went to a book fair yesterday
and bought some stuff for Liam
hopefully he has not got them...lol

Just chilled up the shopping center for most of
the day yesterday with Heena.
Had a chat with Michelle, Debbie, Claire, Martin and Ford.

felt so bloody tired when I got back home with Heena
That I just relaxed on the sofa and had a smoke or two.

Last night, Suzy texted me for a bit,
which I was glad about as
I was really bored and needed cheering up
but I ran out of credit half way thru the
evening until this morning...
Bugger it...Oh well...
Hope she thought that I was not Ignoring her.

Earned £10 this morning for one hours worth of work....lol
nothing that I wanted to do ever again.
Steve (my drunken born again christian pill popping nutter)
wanted me to look after this woman that is staying
in his flat, while he goes up to the doctors.
you see this "Lady" is also a junkie,
and she has been up all night high as a fucking kite.
even the police was over their flat last night while I was texting Suzy
So he offered me a tenner to keep an eye on her
in case she does anything wild.
lucky for me, she passed out in the living room
until Steve got back.
Easy £10 for me, that I will never do again.
Christ....I really should stop being nice to people.

My friend (Suzy) is travelling back to good ol Uk this afternoon
Hope she has a good flight and a safe journey.

Will post more on Saturday.

Quote of the Day:

All those who believe in psychokinesis raise my hand.

Stephen Wright

Fucking Bollocks

Just found out that my Archiving was not working,
and I have lost alot of my posts from last year
and most of this year.
fucking shit, pissed off now...Goddamnit

Thanks Suzy for telling me.
I will let you know what I got up to during those months
when I see you at the weekend.

Ok...rant over....

Monday, I just stayed on the net,
and then went home
and did the boring things like watching TV
and cooking/cleaning, etc

Yesterday was a better day....
Got up really early (7am)
as the gasman was supoosed
to come round first thing in the morning
and seeing that when they arrived last time at 8am
I thought I better get up early...lol

Anywhoo, They did not turn up until 11am
Typical...could have stayed in bed for a while longer
they finally sorted out my bolier,
and hopefully it works now.

Got a brillent letter from Suzy
This lady who replied to my penpal advert in SFX magazine
Is she mad??? lmao
got alot in common,
cant wait until I meet her on Saturday.

Heena came over around 1pm ish
and she showed me loads of photos
when she went to India.
and we talked about Psychic abilities and Spirits

Mel rang me up, I do really miss her and Liam
Hope to see them both before the year is out.

Got loads of phone calls from all the jobs I applied for
Need to go to one of the agencys Tmrw
Hopefully get a warehouse job
Yeh I know, its not excellent,
But I need the money at the moment,
and it will do for me until I get a better job.

Heena left my house around 8pm
and I got a phone call from Suzy
ringing me from Italy (where she works)
Which was cool as I got to hear her voice for the first time
Got good vibes from this lady, Nothing bad at all.

hahaha...
she told me that she is going to read up on
everything about me from this site
poor lass,
she might get scared off now...lmao

Had troubles this morning updating this site
I think blogger is having there own update of the server or something

Going to meet Heena later this afternoon.
Hope she's alright, as I do worry about that Girl.

All Good Things...

Well All good things come to an end...
And well...It was not bloody good anyway...lol
Lost my job Friday evening
after the most shitty day I have ever had.

Friday was my first day back at work
and It turned out that I would be working on my own
all day with no help at all.
I was told that I would be paid
cash in hand at the end of my shift

I had no money for lunch as I was skint
after my Holiday
so I took £5.00 from the till for my lunch
and left a note in the till explaining on what I did.
seeing that I was getting paid at the end of the night
I thought it would be alright,
as Debs could take it out of my wages

Anywhoo,
end of the shift, Debs came over to take over
so I could go home.
I asked for my wages, and she said NO
I will get paid either the next day
or the following monday.
which I was pissed off about
as I had no money or food in the flat.
I explained what I did to get some lunch
and she seemed allright about it.

Little did I know,
that she was plotting my down fall

Later on in the evening,
Heena and Usher came back to my flat,
They bought me some bread and beer to cheer me up
((HUGS to you both))
and I got a phone call,
from Jon who is Deb's husband and partner in the business
he was not too pleased about what I did,
and Debs had told him to sack me
as I acted unprofessional....
which was total bullshit...
my fucks sake, for once in my life,
I was bloody honest in my job, and I got sacked for it...lol

But the thing was, I did not steal anything
as It was (part of) my wages that I took.

Pretty pissed off about it,
so I just said that I would come in the next day to
pick up the remaining money that I was owed.

Anyway, Saturday came
and I went to see Debbie (Just Flowers)
and had a chat with her about it
and she agreed with what i did was right
and I did nothing wrong.

but some people never know how to treat there staff
and at the end of the day,
Its them who are the losers
they needed me to work there fulltime,
as they could not be at the stall all the time
and they needed me to go to the trade fairs
but big fucking HA!!!
serves them right,
now they are up shit creek with out a paddle.

applied for loads of bloody jobs on saturday afternoon
with Heena, who was looking for work as well
heck,
I have even filled in an application for the Police Force!!!
Im not so sure about that,
maybe something in an office/technical side of the Police
instead of footpatrol...who knows...maybe....

stayed at home yesterday
and caught up on all my television that
I have missed over the last two weeks.

Cant wait until next weekend, Really looking forward to it
should be a spiffy night, and I hope it will be a success.

Here goes....

Wow...Its been a while...

Here goes....

A Long Time Ago...In A Galaxy Far Far Away....

Travelled up to Lincoln on Tuesday last week.
The journey was pretty shit and very long,
Did not get into Lincoln until around 7.20pm

I had totally forgotten what Lincoln was like
some of the sights were nice,
Like the old buildings and such,
but basically its your typical boring city

Melanie and Liam met me at the bus station
she had changed alot in apperance (it was a good thing)
and Liam had gotten taller and more tanned
I tell you know, If you had a photo of me as a 9yr old kid
and placed it next to Liam, you would think it was him.
He so looks like me that It's scary...lol

Tuesday night, I just rested and drank some beer
had a chat with Mel, and Liam was showing off to me.
I love that kid...lol

Wednesday, we went into town and I checked out some of the
Goth and Pagan shops.
MY GAWD...Im in so much love with the shops...Hahaha
I had so many Ideas for the business
that Im starting up with Sarah next year
I want to do it now....lol

Gave out a few leaflets for GHUK to the shops,
got alot of good response from it.

Liam dragged me around Toys 'R' Us,
to show me what Toys he liked to have...lol
Ahhhh...bless him....If I had Millions, I would spend it on him :-)

Wednesday night was Interesting,
in the way of me being scared shitless by my sister.

I wont go into detail here,
because,
something like this,
only my friends and the person in question knows what went down.
All I will say is that, Melanie, I do love you,
and I will always be here for you, no matter what.
but Don't you ever do that again, as you really did hurt me.
You need to read your email that I will send you soon.

Thursday, I stayed at home as
I was drained of energy and could not do anything.
So all I did was play with Liam, watch loads of cartoons,
read my book, and helped build some lego robots with Liam.
which was cool...lol

Friday, I went back into town.
checked out the shops at the steep hill
now this place is old..as in really old
and full of energy...
that it made it hard for me to keep my balance at times.
Went into one crystal shop/tea room (go figue)
and I bought a few prezzies for some people
and I got talking to the owner their about our group,
and I handed him our leaflet.
he asked me to go downstairs, to the stone celler,
as there had been activity down there.
which I did,
and Melanie and Liam came down with me to see what they can see.
in fact, the celler was a cold spot,
could not pick anything up,
but the tea room was another matter
there was a bloke sitting there smiling at us as we walked passed
no one else saw him except me...
which was interesting as Im getting quite good at this.

I had a chat with Melanie about Wednesday night's events
and she said she was sorry.
I just hope for her sake that she can sort this out,
as I dont really want to lose her.
had enough of my family leaving me, dont want it happening again...lol

Saturday, We travelled all the way up to Withernsea...My home town...
Gee that was a good day...lol
it was pissing down with rain, cloudy and just a shitty day
I took Mum's ashes to the beach,
and I dug a small hole in the sand, near the tide.
and Mel and I sprinkled the ashes into it, and said our goodbyes
and I felt such warmth and happiness engulfing me
that I almost cryed.
It was so beautiful, Mum is at peace now.

We did not want to stay in Withernsea,
mostly due to the fact,
that I did not want to see the rest of the family that lives there
Melanie gets on with them, heck she loves them.
but me, they never treated me like family, even at the funerial,
they never spoke to me much or bothered with me
and that really hurt,
all I wanted that day was to be close to people,
to feel love from my so called family,
as I was the one who had to deal with everything.
I was the one who was there when
both my parents were ill and had to look after them.
I was the one who watched my Mum and Dad
die in front of me, watching their life ebb away.
I was the one who had to deal with the
funerial arrangements when I was out of work.
and the rest of the family who turned up at
the funerial could not give a fucking shit about me
how I was feeling and if I was going to be alright...well Fuck them all
who needs aunts, uncles, cousins.
I have my own family now, and Im happy now!!!

Fuck me....that was a bloody good rant...feel all better now...Lmao

anywhoo...back to my week...

The rest of saturday and sunday,
I just chilled at home, watching TV and reading my book

Monday I went into the village and had another spooky event happen.
which freaked me out alot.
Just chilled most of that day as well.

The holiday was good, except two events that happend,
I had a good time
the meals I had to eat was bloody excellent,
and I have missed Melanie, Liam, and Martin.

Tuesday, I travelled back to jolly MK
The journey back was alright,
except that I had to sit next to a smelly asian bloke
lol
Sarah, picked me up from the coach station, total darling for doing that for me.
Martin and Sarah had been keeping an eye on my flat while I was away,
which I was glad about.
after dropping my suitcase off at my place and reading my mail.
I went over to there house until midnight.
just chatting and drinking, and had a luch meal as well.
christ I had missed them, Its good to have friends like these two.

Wednesday, I met up with Heena, and spent time with her
she had missed me as well.
gave Rebecca her prezzie, which she loved.
had a chat with Debbie at Just Flowers
walked over to Eaglestone, to go over to Sarah and Martin's house
as I needed some advice on what happend last week.
Had a chat with our group medium, and I increased my one of my abilities
I even amazed Sarah and Alison on what I could do.
yeh I know, I'm the best...lol
go...ego boost over...for now...lol

Today, Im off out tonight, and I need to hand out more leaflets for GHUK.

Laters